As the end of the year quickly approaches…I’m trying to determine what I want my next decade to look like. I’m not going to lie 2019 has been hard as shit. I’ve had difficult conversations with those that I love, lost relationships, and cried more than I would like to admit. I’m not going to say that nothing good came out of the foolishness though.
I knew from undergrad that I wanted my career to be in the sex field. I had no clue how I was going to do it, but I knew I did. This year I have taken big steps to fulfill my undergrad goal. I have birthed 2 businesses, met with multiple people in the field, bonded with a new tribe of supportive women, and started a new relationship with myself.
No one ever explains how pursuing a passion requires you to pursue yourself first. I don’t think I’ve ever been as honest to myself about my feelings as I have been this year. There have been a few questions that have been rolling around in my head since I decided I wanted to open my own business.
-How do I want to show up for my future clients?
-Have I done the necessary work on myself to provide my client’s with a genuine service?
-Who is my ideal client?
Now, I’m still working on these questions and I’m okay with that. I am shedding my present skin and going into the new decade with a new thought process….a new priority you might say.
Me….
My new priority is me. I want to fall in love with me, date me, pamper me, make love to me…then I want to share that process for the greater good. You see, I understand that my role as a woman has consisted of working, paying bills, taking care of my family and doing it all over again. Every once in a while I would throw a trip in there to reward myself for playing my role.
BUT…between you and me, my trips were a way of running away. Remember I said I’m being completely honest leaving this year. Everyone ooo’s and aahh’s over my international trips, but little do they know I was trying to get as far a way as possible from the many “roles” in my life.
I’m done running…
From this moment forward, I promise to myself that I will build a life that I will never have to run from. I will wake up grateful and cherish my energy. This is greatness in the making and I can’t wait to share it!!!!
